I listened to this one on ebook because I couldn’t get into the book but was curious given all the places I saw it quoted.
It was just bad and I kept anticipating some big revelation at the end but only got disappointment.

Even the author preferred his second book to it and recognized how juvenile that attempt was, but the other never really got the same notoriety. The whole mini genre of self-insert neo-Nazi revenge fantasy that was published in the '90s by Resistance Books was pretty cringe. (Several other books that tried to be similar to this but managed to be even worse including at least one god-awful sci-fi version).

Blood Meridian. I was still in middle school so maybe about 13. I’d never come across anything that bleak before.