I’m really sorry about your grandmother. Please try not to feel guilty though - it sounds like she was in good health and there’s no way you could’ve known what was going to happen.

I don’t think it’s weird or unhealthy to use books to help you escape the real world for a bit. I’m absolutely biased here because it’s my preferred coping mechanism too - but hey, there are much worse ways of coping!

For me the books that I loved to re-read were Tamora Pierce’s books and all of the Anne of Green Gables books.

I’m glad you’re doing something that brings you some comfort and I hope you’re starting to feel better soon.