Lone dove was the most recent emotional investment for me. takes a while to build up but it’s so good. And the ending is perfect

Every young man should read it. I love the Andrew Macandrew translation “Whether I went to Nevsky Avenue, to the park, or wandered along the embankments, I never came across the people I was accustomed to meet in certain spots at certain hours all year round. They, of course, didn’t know me; but I knew them, all right. I knew them intimately, and having studied their faces, I rejoiced with them when they were cheerful and grieved with them when they were downcast. I almost became friends with a little old man whom I met every day at a certain time on the Fontanka Embankment. His face was so dignified and thoughtful; he carried a knotty walking cane with a gold top in his right hand, swinging his left arm, and was constantly mumbling something inaudible. He even noticed me and took a keen interest in my existence. I’m sure he must’ve been quite upset when I did not appear at a given hour on the embankment. That’s why sometimes we almost exchanged greetings, especially when we both happened to be in a good mood. Recently, two days went by without our seeing each other, and on the third day, our hands almost shot up to our hats, but thank God, we came to our senses, dropped our hands, and passed by with mutual sympathy.”

Cormac is the shit. He’s like a friend to me. Blood meridian , All the pretty horses, the crossing, no country, the road… just please please don’t read child of god. Shit was fucked up I felt betrayed

It transcends depressing. It’s dire and anxiety producing. I read it 20 years ago but I still remember the scenes vividly. Like ringing the bell in the apartment. Or visiting the investigator… I contracted the flu partway through this book and I think the anxiety it produced had some cause in how ill I became. I couldn’t put it down though.

It’s one of those books that have a different meaning throughout your life. But it’s rich with concepts only adults could understand personallyv