I love hearing about the connection you had with your Mom, and I hope you’re well!

Just dropping by to offer a different opinion: Perhaps you’re not in the right time of your life to make your way through it? Shelving it and keeping it ready as a goal for the future is totally fine in kind of a, “I’m gonna conquer this thing one day, Mom!” sort of way. You can know that the connection with your Mom is there in that text, and it will be there for you when you’re ready for it.