I realize that by posting this question I’m cementing the fact that I’m similar to him I’m always needing validation, the same way he asked Diane if he’s doomed. But I, in real life, am struggling with addiction, I just had a conversation with my family after about a year of struggling with severe depression. I tried to explain that I don’t want to be this way but I can’t help but always feel shitty. They said that it was me who was propelling this cycle, which is true, but the story is so long, my life has been going like this for sooo long that I can’t remember what’s what anymore. So when they asked “why exactly are you depressed” I just said “I don’t know” over and over again and I tried to explain that it’s more of a state I’ve always been in, rather than an emotion from an event. The whole argument sort of had a “It’s you” tone. I don’t know. I told them I want to go to therapy, but they told me point blank that if I go back to my old ways that they’re done with me. I’m not sure what to do, I feel like it’s over.
Nobody is ever doomed.
Good friend of mine was ruthlessly addicted to fent and other hard drugs for a long time. Robbing people, stealing vacant houses, living on the street, and god knows what other stuff he doesn’t talk about. If you asked anybody who knew him they would’ve said he was a lost cause. Today, he’s an amazing father to two kids, completely turned himself around. I know things may seem hopeless sometimes and it’s impossible to convince yourself otherwise, but no matter who you are or what your situation is you can always do the hokey pokey and turn yourself around