• HerculeanTardigrade@alien.topB
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    1 year ago

    Really unfathomable to me how people go on with their lives like it’s natural to them. Meanwhile I’m struggling to know whether I’m mentally ill or just straight up lazy. I have no motivation. Nothing in the world makes me want to live life. I wish I could see how other people see the world. What the hell moves people? My conclusion is that really some people aren’t just meant for this world.

    • KoshurKoor1115@alien.topB
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      1 year ago

      I truly believe there’s no such thing as someone just being “lazy” with no underlying reason. Try your best to find a professional to talk to and figure out what that reason is for you, whether it’s depression or ADHD or whatever. The proper medication can make a huge difference, as I am currently learning 😂

    • auillolo@alien.topB
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      1 year ago

      I’m in the same situation and it’s getting so tiring, and the worst thing is that this is a self destructive cycle, by not having something to live for I end up doing less stuff and lowering my chances of finding something that I enjoy

  • Stewie_Venture@alien.topB
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    1 year ago

    I’ve been off and on clean from anorexia for a little over a month and a half. I had a pretty shit day with dysphoria/dysmorphia more or less just spent it hiding in my room under a blanket blasting sad punk music and crying over how disgusting I am and how much I hate my body. I just kinda realized a few minutes ago at almost midnight while listening to rock in gods shoe by sushi soucy that the thing I actually miss most about it is how much it let me hurt myself and punish myself for everything pretty much. That and the control of it and not to mention power but that idk that’s kinda fucked up right like idk. I just I’ve been a mess for awhile and I just have no fucking idea what to do anymore. I barely got through dinner tonight and that was my only real meal today I don’t even think I can do tomorrow maybe just have a relapse day fuck. I just what do you do when you have nothing and lost the only coping mechanism you had for all of high school and now…now what?

    • niversescribbles@alien.topOPB
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      1 year ago

      All this is too much for anyone to take. I hope you’re getting the help you need to deal with this. I hope it gets better for you.

      • Stewie_Venture@alien.topB
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        1 year ago

        Thanks I’m not but I hope it gets better for me too. Compared to when I first started it already is.