I just finished the show, and I’ve always been confused on this one part. When Sarah Lynn and Bojack are on their bender, I believe at some point it starts playing out flashbacks to a time when Bojack was gonna ask Sarah Lynn to be on the “Bojack Horseman Show”, when she said the famous “the light inside me is slowly dying” but was that actually real? Because after a couple minutes he snorts Heroin and then starts talking with the same guy that had him ask Sarah Lynn to come onto the show, asking if the whole doing heroin was too much. I assumed it was made up from the drugs but people are talking about it like it was a real event, so was it?
This moment was real and it was the last straw for Sarah Lynn. This was the moment where Sarah Lynn gave up. In this scene, you can see in the background that Sarah Lynn had written notes like “I love me” and “don’t forget yourself” or something like that and she had written them because while her life was hard and causing her to suffer she still was strong and had hope for herself. She wanted to keep her light alive. Then, Bojack came in and she is so happy because she feels like the person that she has looked up to so much, has hope for her too, and is proud of her, and supports her. But, when she realizes that he was only there to use her fame in order to get more attention on his show, she looses all strength. Her light dies. She gives up. This was when Sarah Lynn died because she now knew that there was nobody there for her.