Hey guys. I was diagnosed with BPD(Borderline Personality Disorder) in 7th grade. I am now 18 and I have found myself rewatching the show.
While watching with my boyfriend I have found myself crying various times or just feeling bad for Bojack. When he asked how I could sympathize with him I told him I just get it.
Now I would like to say I am no where NEAR as bad as Bojack but I found certain things he did relatable. I.e the reckless sex, manipulation on Diane, using PC and hating Mr.Peanut Butter cause he is happy. Now I have grown a lot through years of therapy but I never realized how much I acted like him before that.
Like that one seen at the end of season one where Bojack speaks at the ghost writers meeting begging Diane to say he was a good person. I had to turn off my tv because I’ve done that to multiple people. Or when he went on that bender with Sarah even though she clearly is troubled. I did that with an old friend my freshman year and we drove drunk and high and snuck out a lot. I could have gotten her killed but I didn’t care cause I wanted drugs.
I don’t know why I am writing this or what I am expecting but I just realized how GOOD this show is and yet so fucked up.
Hi! I also have bpd and relate a lot to Bojack. It was really hard for me to watch the first time. Like you said too, definitely not to the same level, but the internal workings of Bojack feel so familiar to us. When I fuck up and want to beg people for reassurance and blow up their phone with how guilty I feel, I hear Todd say “you cant just keep doing messed up stuff and then apologize for it. you need to be better”. It reminds that even in all my agony and sadness, all I can do is try to be better in the future and give people the space they need. It helps me move forward in a healthy way, even with how bittersweet it is. I think it’s helpful to see our most negative behaviors depicted in such a realistic manor. I often find the show comforting now, but still depressing.
I’m 20 and you’re only 18, we’re both young- but I think it’s really good how self aware we both are. We gotta keep working in therapy and try our best :)
Todd really gave the best advice lol. But thank you for this. It’s nice to see other Borderlines to relate to this in some fuvked up way