I don’t know if I’m a mix of BoJack and Dianne or if I’m one of them but I’m on anti-depressants, I wanna be happy even though I used to tell myself “some people just get to be happy and others don’t. I’m others,” and it’s not easy to be happy with where I’m at in my life at my age and people reminding me of it, and started going to a secular based recovery program about a month ago for my video game moderation issue which the host said, “it’s good you’re here for the others,” which I didn’t know what the fuck that meant at first and I have a very active mind, and I hate being single and I’ve been that way for 11 years now (yes I’ve dated but nothing has stuck… exactly).

Life hurts and I’m trying to make it better but I just feel like everything is failing even when I try