I’m so sorry to hear about your grandmother. I get why you feel guilty, but please don’t be too hard on yourself. You had no way of knowing what was going to happen and when.

I think lying in bed with tea and your comfort book is very healthy, every person has their own way of grieving. Sometimes you need to nope out of life for a while before you can come back and process emotions and get through loss like that. Sometimes I go for a long walk listening to music until I just zone out, sometimes I spend my day on the sofa binging a tv show I’ve already watched multiple times, and sometimes I stay in bed with my comfort book, which is also Harry Potter. I remember my dad taking me to a bookstore at midnight to get the latest book when it was out and whenever I read them it makes me feel like I did then, secure, loved and oblivious to some of life’s cruelties. Sometimes going back to those memories and feelings is what we need to heal.

You should take all the time you need to process this and I hope you’re okay.

I loved this book. I read all of the classics Stephen King books years ago and found it hard to get back into them but this book reignited my love for his story telling abilities. It was so different from us usual stuff but the story was amazing