i am uhh… eating increasingly cold mcdonald’s in bed. it’s not good. it’s my breakfast and it’s currently half past midnight.

i should be doing laundry right now but im charging my phone and i can’t do both simultaneously, because i only have one extension chord for power outlets.

today i got yelled at by a drug dealer for being late.

tomorrow, i get to go to work with a guy i was seeing, who 2 days ago told me to “get fucked”.

idk man

i mean, yes he did improve in my opinion. a little bit. and it’s sort of the point.

but if we’re looking for reasons to think he’s the same, it’s in his dialogue. he says prison is just like rehab, a controlled environment where he can’t really do any harm, but once he gets out it will be the same. also, where we see him last is arguably his lowest point (in prison…)

anyone who knows recovery knows that improving for a couple of months isn’t a guarantee for anything. yes, first steps are incredibly important (and personally that’s why i think he’s changed, he’s taken a step) but are no guarantee that you’ll stay on track.

just gotta do it every day (and start from 0 every time you fuck up)

i think it was the last one. in-universe, because Diane has moved on, and in a meta sense because the show started when they met, so it has to end when they talk for the last time