My parents and my younger sister do not want me to be okay and happy and everything is worse now.
As a breadwinner in my family, I never received such fair treatment coming from my parents. I just work all the time, and I am currently sick due to overfatigue and was not able to go to work for a week now. They are just expecting too much out of my when I feel like their expectations is really a burden now. They even meddle with my personal affairs, like love, which my sister didn’t even experience. My parents let my sister do all the things she wants to even if caused a lot of money or even if she will abandon all her duties inside our house. To the point that it is normal for her to return to the house at 5am in the morning. But when I do that, I would get an earful and will sooner receive a silent treatment for weeks.
But today would be the worst of it all. I am currently in a relationship after being single for 2 years. I am happy. I have a lot of plans. I want to be with her. However, my parents at first were understanding (or do they) but when my sister came in to the scene, they left me long messages, meddling with my relationship, discouraging me and even gaslighting me to the point that I remember that these are things that stopped me in looking for someone that I could love and soon marry. And I think that this dream of mine won’t happen again.
I am tired. O God, please help me.
I think a 12-step group would be useful to you right now and they’re completely free and available online or via phone. Maybe start with ACA, which started out for Adult Children of Alcoholics but also now encompasses anyone who grew up with any dysfunction in the house—I’ve met folks who had narcissistic parents, hoarding, etc. I’ve done one-on-one therapy and 12-step work off and on for years and honestly, when I really invest in the step work and groups, it’s like a rocket to new understanding. I wish you peace and commend you for starting the journey to making things different for yourself. It takes courage and bravery.
Thank you very much and I’ll research more about that 12-step group that you have mentioned. And yes, I agree, it really takes a lot of courage to be able to acknowledge this part of my life and have the willingness to take action.